This Moment

I thought life was finally rewarding me
For all those times I fought
Every temptation, every easy escape--
Even when I was tiptoeing the line of losing me.

But no, & such has always been my journey:
The only helping hand is my other hand.

I don't know what I'm doing,
Nor do I know where I'm going...
Whether I will regret this moment
Or sigh with relief in reminiscence--

I only know I must stay true to myself
For this is the only thing I know with certainty.